“What I’ve become”

Before I use to be an observer who watches things happen but never take action, Till I learned that someday I would have a say on things I see. I guess what defines me as a person is the way I take action on how things are. For me “It’s not about what you know, it’s what you can prove.” It’s never enough that you know how things are or how things went, like if you saw a man got hit by a car its not enough that you saw it happen one should have the courage to speak up and take action about what happen and spill the beans to the authority, one should at least do something about it and take action and learn from it in life.

With all the changes happening in my life I think it’s about time I call the shots on how things goes, I get the chance to say what stays and what goes, like saying where to go after school should I head home or go some where else, or should I even have dinner or should I skip it. Considering I grew up in a family of people with free speech, I think it’s only right that I should also voice out in the family. So know a days I don’t only know how things went, like the time my sister got married and I only knew that she was going to get married when I was already in my “barong” in the church and being the bible bearer. Now a days I also get the opportunity to act on things that happens, like the time my sister had a party and I didn’t know about it and we both own the house we lived in so for 8 years that we’ve been living together I finally had the chance to put my foot down and said “These parties that you do every time mom sends money has to stop if you wont tell me that you are going to have one.” And telling her that felt so good. It was like gas that’s been in me for a long time that finally went out.

In life I learned that it would never heart to voice out or get rough with the big boys in my life and stand up to them at most of the times if you know what I mean. So I decided to stick and practice my attitude being assertive on things and that assertiveness made my mom feel confident that I am old enough to entrust the house that my mom gave to me and my sister. To me my sister was like my training ground for the big world, maybe what I’m trying to say is that my sister is one of the best things that define me. And now every time that I reason out I remember my sister who was an “Everest” for me while growing up. I guess its true on what people say about courage, its not the absence of fear courage is the presence of fear that gives you the will to go on.